[ this is terrible and he hates it all, BUT HE'LL LIVE HE SUPPOSES.
the apartment is in the lower-ish levels, in small, crowded conditions in a not-so-bad-but-could-be-worse part of the city. Loki has to let her through two sets of doors through the neural implant, and then to the upper floor of his apartment. it's also small, actually, it looks to small to even house Thor and another person, but here they are.
Loki's in a slouchy pants and a tank top. his socks have stripes on them. he waves Kate in. ]
[Kate is holding one of those environmentally friendly biodegradable bags everyone uses now, and she offers it to him.]
I got you Nutella and bacon. I mean, it's probably bug bacon or something, but beggars can't be choosers. Just don't combine it with anything disgusting in front of me.
[ okay, look, he's not expecting much and definitely not party favors. a frown tugs a little at his lips, and he holds the bag with one hand like he's not exactly sure what to do with it. instead he decides to switch focus and head inside behind her, putting the bag on the counter. ]
You are in my rented mortal apartment during our displacement, and hardly in a place to make demands.
[ meaning: he'll eat all the gross things he wants, thanks. ]
[ WATER RATIONING IS IN PLACE, OK. he's not made of cash money credits right now, even though Thor is back and his financial stability went up. he's still getting on his feet getting his shady business on.
he never does good with questions like these. ]
Well, my wounds are generally healed—[ aside from his shoulder. ]—and the atmosphere seems to have gone somewhere back to normal.
There's still no coffee and no diners serve sausage as a side with breakfast.
[ that's not what she meant, but there's a lot that he doesn't want to talk about. there are places that it leads that he'll have to explain, pieces of what's happened left in their own universe while he tries to get on his feet in this one.
there's a pause as he looks at her face, and then her outstreched hand. he doesn't take it, not yet. there's a moment where he just looks somewhat exasperated. ]
Kate ...
[ there's some discomfort there that he'd usually hide, but he doesn't. he owes her that to the least. ]
sorting through his own feelings is difficult enough, and he doesn't want Kate to catch a glimpse of something unrelated. besides, he owes her an explanation more than a cop-out.
[ that's still ... still broad. ever since he arrived it's been loss of autonomy and agency, tracking down those that seek to use him for their own means. it's in the back of his mind, and ironic, really—used by both Asgard and by the people of this world without means of fighting back.
but he'll find a different way to lift his middle finger, he always does.
there's a raise of a brow then a squint. ]
Would angry suffice?
[ he holds all that anger well, but it still settles in him, twists and threatens to burst. ]
[ it always, always feels like he owes her something. he hates it, really, but it catches him and drags him back from the game that he constantly insists on playing.
he can't hurt Kate, not again. ]
Angry, still—just as I did when I arrived, and my autonomy was stripped from me.
[ and many other things he doesn't like talking about: helpless, when he breeds his own brand of control; vulnerable, when he had done his damndest never to feel that way again; and like he had so long ago, dredging up memories that he'd rather forget.
he raises a brow at her. ]
The experience was violating.
[ like he wasn't himself, or that he was more himself? ]
[Kate sighs softly, quiet for a moment. That's how she figured it felt, honestly, but now that she has the confirmation, she's not entirely sure how to respond. When she does continue, her voice is gentler.]
I'm sorry. It seems like this place is good at that, isn't it? I wish we could have gotten to you sooner, but I bet that cure wasn't a great experience either.
[ that was. a lot of anger that poured out of him. he had felt it before, so he had known, partially, that i was his own. he had felt it so intensely during the course of so many lives, that it was familiar. that part still scared him. ]
I suppose the worst part would be ... [ he rubs the back of his neck, looking like he's not entirely certain of the words he's about to express. ] It wasn't unfamiliar.
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What?
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Kate Bishop! This is cruel manipulation!
[ but you know what, she gets the pin on her neural implant on the location of his apartment. ]
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[And, about a half hour later, he gets a knock at his door.]
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the apartment is in the lower-ish levels, in small, crowded conditions in a not-so-bad-but-could-be-worse part of the city. Loki has to let her through two sets of doors through the neural implant, and then to the upper floor of his apartment. it's also small, actually, it looks to small to even house Thor and another person, but here they are.
Loki's in a slouchy pants and a tank top. his socks have stripes on them. he waves Kate in. ]
Hello, Kate Bishop, you made it.
[ of course she made it. ]
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[Kate is holding one of those environmentally friendly biodegradable bags everyone uses now, and she offers it to him.]
I got you Nutella and bacon. I mean, it's probably bug bacon or something, but beggars can't be choosers. Just don't combine it with anything disgusting in front of me.
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You are in my rented mortal apartment during our displacement, and hardly in a place to make demands.
[ meaning: he'll eat all the gross things he wants, thanks. ]
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Uh huh. You're going to let me use your shower, right?
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I'm tempted to decline you—but thirty seconds. Going over rationed water carries a steep fee, you know.
[ he pays attention to these things when they affect him, ok. ]
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Thirty seconds.
[Whatever, Loki! That's not why she's here anyway.]
How are you doing?
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he never does good with questions like these. ]
Well, my wounds are generally healed—[ aside from his shoulder. ]—and the atmosphere seems to have gone somewhere back to normal.
There's still no coffee and no diners serve sausage as a side with breakfast.
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I'm glad you're healing up, but that isn't what I meant.
[She knew this would be sort of an uphill battle, but she's still going to do her best. For a second, Kate hesitates, then offers him her hand.]
You could just show me if you want.
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there's a pause as he looks at her face, and then her outstreched hand. he doesn't take it, not yet. there's a moment where he just looks somewhat exasperated. ]
Kate ...
[ there's some discomfort there that he'd usually hide, but he doesn't. he owes her that to the least. ]
You don't need to do that.
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[Kate just keeps her hand outstretched.]
Neither do you, but if it's easier, I'm offering.
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[ she'll take that back once she digs into his emotions, he's certain. there are ghosts there that he doesn't want to bring out, not right now. ]
I'll talk.
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[She lets her hand drop, then shoots him a soft smile.]
Should we sit?
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[ he says through all of his discomfort.
sorting through his own feelings is difficult enough, and he doesn't want Kate to catch a glimpse of something unrelated. besides, he owes her an explanation more than a cop-out.
so, they sit. ]
Where, exactly, would you like me to start?
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You look plenty comfortable to me.
[Then she shifts, kicking off her flip flops and pulling her feet up onto her seat.]
Start wherever you want. I'll listen.
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[ just kind of being honest here. ]
You'll have to be more specific.
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Okay. Tell me how you're feeling. You know, about everything that's happened.
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but he'll find a different way to lift his middle finger, he always does.
there's a raise of a brow then a squint. ]
Would angry suffice?
[ he holds all that anger well, but it still settles in him, twists and threatens to burst. ]
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Yeah, that's a good word for it. How are you feeling after... You know, the last few days?
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he can't hurt Kate, not again. ]
Angry, still—just as I did when I arrived, and my autonomy was stripped from me.
[ and many other things he doesn't like talking about: helpless, when he breeds his own brand of control; vulnerable, when he had done his damndest never to feel that way again; and like he had so long ago, dredging up memories that he'd rather forget.
he raises a brow at her. ]
The experience was violating.
[ like he wasn't himself, or that he was more himself? ]
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I'm sorry. It seems like this place is good at that, isn't it? I wish we could have gotten to you sooner, but I bet that cure wasn't a great experience either.
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[ that was. a lot of anger that poured out of him. he had felt it before, so he had known, partially, that i was his own. he had felt it so intensely during the course of so many lives, that it was familiar. that part still scared him. ]
I suppose the worst part would be ... [ he rubs the back of his neck, looking like he's not entirely certain of the words he's about to express. ] It wasn't unfamiliar.
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