I don't know what to tell you, Damian. I care about you, and I'm here for you, but you're angry with me all the time, too. Even when I'm trying to help.
I can barely get through a conversation with you without tripping over something you consider "pushing too hard". Are we just supposed to keep not talking about the awful things that happen to us here? It always ends up being up to you whether we deal with things or not.
Okay. But you have to mean it, and it can't be a get out of jail free card. You and Jason like to insist you don't need help or don't want to talk, and then let things fester and blow up a month later. It would be nice if you showed you cared about me a little more, too. Half the time I'm allowed to touch you and half the time I'm not, and you never even really ask me how I'm doing.
[He's getting blunt Kate now, since she's decided sincere Kate doesn't seem to work.]
I was raised by assassins. If I showed weakness then punishment would follow and that could be lethal. My mother's idea of coddling was taking care to avoid arteries when training, and she wasn't a fan of coddling. When I'm worked up fight or flight takes over. I've thrown people through walls for startling me. The powers make it worse.
I'm sorry, Damian. I know it's hard to talk about, but it helps when you tell me things like this. I don't feel so in the dark, and I don't have to guess at what you need.
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[ does he ever. ]
I know what I want to do.
I'm just illsuited for it.
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[ no. more than that. ]
Lead a team and shape it right. Not falling into the same traps my father did.
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It's just
You need to stop taking your anger out on people, Damian.
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I care about you, and I'm here for you, but you're angry with me all the time, too. Even when I'm trying to help.
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It pisses me off when you push too hard.
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Are we just supposed to keep not talking about the awful things that happen to us here?
It always ends up being up to you whether we deal with things or not.
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there's a pause. ]
Okay.
So we need a middle ground.
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And if I don't want to talk anymore, I tell you.
[ . . . ]
And I tell you why.
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You and Jason like to insist you don't need help or don't want to talk, and then let things fester and blow up a month later.
It would be nice if you showed you cared about me a little more, too.
Half the time I'm allowed to touch you and half the time I'm not, and you never even really ask me how I'm doing.
[He's getting blunt Kate now, since she's decided sincere Kate doesn't seem to work.]
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[ don't be snippy, asshole. that's what got you in this miss. ]
I'm sorry. Words aren't my strong suit.
I'll try harder.
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I just don't like people touching me when I get worked up.
For their safety and mine.
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[ he almost leaves it at that. ]
It's always been like that.
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My mother's idea of coddling was taking care to avoid arteries when training, and she wasn't a fan of coddling.
When I'm worked up fight or flight takes over. I've thrown people through walls for startling me.
The powers make it worse.
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I know it's hard to talk about, but it helps when you tell me things like this. I don't feel so in the dark, and I don't have to guess at what you need.